not being sovereign

So the last few weeks have been interesting to say the least, though not entirely exciting:

-Sarah has gone home (sad times, though hopefully she will be back soon)
-I have become the Men's coordinator for my class at HFBC
-God is showing me that no matter how much I want to be in control, I'm not.
-I have realized I haven't been healthy so far in Texas and that is now being remedied.
-Remembered that when I focus on other things but God, my life doesn't go too well.

So Sarah went home last Monday to FL to stay with her rents for a bit while she looks for a job to come back here to. That process is not as quick of course as I would hope but I am still excited that she will be able to return soon. Realizing that He is in control of all things as far as timing goes, it's comforting to know that she is there right now for a reason.

The director of the class that I attend at HFBC asked me to be the Men's coordinator two weeks ago, and I told him that I would. I am quite excited about the opportunity to encourage brothers in Christ and develop relationships with them. There is nothing like walking with brothers and being able to encourage them throughout our daily lives and be encouraged by them at the same time. Hm, wonder if that was intended to be that way by someone...

Yet again I have remembered that though I want to be in control of my life, I'm not. It is not my own and nothing that I do will ever change that. I find that awesome btw. With that, I also have had a heavy heart for the fact that I am not putting God first in things that I do, and that the things I am focusing on here in Houston are for the better of myself. These would include all the things I say that I am doing for the Lord but more closely examined have selfish motives behind them. Praise Him for breaking us so often and filling us up with His grace and mercy. So if I do things for myself, and nothing that I can do will let me control anything or help my cause, why do I do these things? Workin on remembering that when I put Him first and become sold out to Him that He will give me the desires of my heart. And how exciting will that be? When my desires are in line with His. Keep on keepin on...

And yea, exercise is starting... horay. more updates on that later.